verb: relinquish to the power of another; yield to the control of another
This past week I was doing well, until a virus hit me. It was inevitable, I guess, since my son had it and I was taking care of him. This sickness seemed to come on suddenly with headache, full body aches and an overall feeling of tiredness.
Surrender to the Illness
Now you may wonder what a virus has to do with surrender. I know a virus is not a person, but I certainly had no control over it.
So the best thing I could do was give in to it. Not in a despairing sort of way, but I acknowledged that it had hit me and I could do nothing to avoid it.
Normally, when my head is throbbing, I tend to tense up, which only makes the pain worse. I should remember that from my days of labor when giving birth. Practicing slow, deep breathing helps you lean into the pain rather than fight it.
Surrender, but also Pray
As I introduced in my post, Presence: Bringing God into all of Life, I am taking part in The Presence Project with Summer Gross. We are learning to practice the presence of God in our lives. I decided to make use of something we began in the first month, that is, a breath prayer.
As I take a deep breath, letting my body relax, I say a quick prayer. What I have been using this past month is this:
As I breathe in I say Be still, and as I breathe out I say and know that I am God.
So during the early part of my sickness I used that prayer alternating with a different one to remind me that Jesus goes with me in the sickness and through every part of my day. This is what I prayed as I took slow, deep breaths:
Breathe in: Lord Jesus, breathe out: You are here in this moment.
As I repeated that prayer, I felt my body relax. The slow, deep breathing played an important part in that.
But I believe reminding myself of the presence of Jesus with me was even more comforting and helped me relax and trust.
Psalm 23:4 (CSB)
Even when I go through the darkest valley,
I fear no danger,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff—they comfort me.
Romans 8:38-39 (CSB)
For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers,
nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth,
nor any other created thing will be able to separate us from
the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
You can find the rest of my series HERE.